Ever since I came back from a mission trip in Baguio and
Mindanao, I told myself, “Ok Cherrie, it’s time to face the reality of life.”
That’s when I started hunting for job and fortunately got hired after a month. I
worked in an IT distributor company and was blessed to have an Account
Executive position. I did my work well, but because of some circumstances, I was
forced to move out and transfer to a different company.
I am currently employed on this company. I am getting paid
HIGHER. I got a MORE wonderful boss. I got myself a bunch of beautiful people
and friends in here. (well minus the fact that we have to do a lot of reporting
and updating stuffs to keep in track of everything).
While walking one morning, a thought of something suddenly
hit me. “Is this what I was made for, to go to office everyday and do reports
and manage my accounts? To stay 8-10 hours a day trying to run this renewal
business that was assigned to me and to my team? Those questions swirled inside
my head for how many days. Uncomfortable of the thought, I began praying about
it. One Sunday afternoon, I was given a chance to talk with one of the most
wonderful couples I’ve ever met in our church. They’re both YWAM volunteers/
missionaries in Smokey Mountain, Tondo, Manila. Originally, my plan was to
conduct a regular meeting with our Missions Department Committee, but
unfortunately, most of our leaders were not available; so I was left with this
couple and we ended up sharing things out about our personal experience in missions.
I cried as I listen to their testimonies and story. These people, having no
work at all, doing missions FULL TIME and raising 4 kids, well; I can’t imagine
how they manage to cope up with all the challenges of living in the city.
Their story is not just inspiring, it’s actually ENCOURAGING.
My faith was challenged. My calling was rekindled. Our conversation somehow
gave me a vague answer to my question “What’s my purpose in this life?” God
gave me a verse from ACTS 20:22-24. Verse 22 blown me away. “And now, compelled
by the Spirit, I am going to Jerusalem, not knowing what will happen to me
there.”
Memories flooded my thoughts. It’s like my brain traveled
back in time and remember the first Missionary prayer I uttered to God back
when I was in Grade 3 while watching at some YWAM performers: “Lord
when I grow up, I want to be like them.” God also made me remember the time
when He revealed all His plans to me and to my parents and church as well. Tears
fell off my eyes as I reminisced those moments, revelations and confirmations
from God.
From that Sunday on, I began praying about Missions and
continue to meditate on Acts 20:22-24. I began searching for some Missions
Organizations and began reading some blogs about missionaries and their endeavors.
While searching one day, I bumped into one of YWAM’s website in Thailand. I started
browsing the site and I must admit that I fell in love with it. I’ve never
thought of Thailand before, maybe because I really don’t have any plans of
going off the Philippines to do missions. But there is something in there,
something that seems right, something that would complete the emptiness I am
feeling inside. It’s like I found a piece that would complete the puzzle of my
life.
I realized, I was made for something bigger than my office
space. I was made to stand and walk for Jesus instead of sitting in front of my
office computer. I was made to speak about the love of God and not just to
speak about our company products and benefits. I was made for a greater task: the task of testifying the Gospel
of Grace to the people.
I think I will be leaving for Thailand next year. I don’t know
where specifically there, I don’t know the exact date yet; all I know right now
is that the Holy Spirit is compelling me to go there and just be amazed with
what God will do to me and through me.
Will i start counting the days? I am excited!